don know why so sad ...

suddenly don know why i become so sad and so miss him ...
don know wat he doin now !!! don know he miss me or not ??? don know he eat ady or not ??? don know yesterday he enough sleep or not ??? don know later he will go out or not ???? all my mind only him ... everything also him ... i don know how can make myself don wan too miss him ... i don know how can make myself don wan to love him ... i don know how to control myself .... i don know don know don know how how how !!!!!

i don know in his mind how i am .. i don know in his mind i am his who ... i also don know is his mind i am his gf or not .... but now a days , i tersedar relationship between me and him change ... don know why !!! i don know the reason ... he like very good to me ... but he also like bad to me .... mybe he know i love him ... my be he know i like him .... my be he know everything i did for him is pretend i like him ....

H don like i and him together ... he say he is not a good guy but i wan t o do ??/ i cannot control myself don w an to love him ... i don have choice ...the feeling that i love him just like i love 294 .... i don know how to say .... everybody tell me 294 very bad ... 294 is not a good guy ... 294 won be good to me ... everybody also tell me like that ... but in that moment , i don know how to control myself don wan to love him ... i cannot control my feeling .... just like now , i love 3665 ... i don know how to control myself don wan to love him ... but i don know why H don like m e together with him ... my be he is not a good guy ... den how i cannot do anything ....

every time i heard what H told me ... when i close myself in my room ... i also will cry ... i don know why H wan to tell me this thing ... am i wrong wan t o love a person ... why i wan to mind what they say ... why i wan to care what they say ... why i wan to put in the heart what ever they say !!! i don know why ..... i tell myself i love the person is 3665 , i only can follow my feeling to love and not to heard what they say to me .... but i don know why i still mind H tell me everything ... i don know ... who can tell me how now and why ???????????